Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Somewhere Under the Rainbow


One of my friends is doing a project on class, race, and body image, and asked me to share my thoughts. I figured that this is as good a place as any to do so.  For the most part, these are personal opinions and experiences. I do also mention societal and cultural norms, stereotypes, and tropes, but this is still very much told from my point of view.  Obviously there are a variety of truths and stories related to this subject.  I can only speak from the view-point of a person at a certain socio-economic level, or as a member of a certain race, or as a person with my particular body. I don’t claim to speak for any groups.

Class (and its intersection with Race and Body Image):

I don't have any particular feelings about class, which is a privilege. I am by no means rich--my family is pretty solidly middle-class--and my EFC for school is actually pretty low. My parents have raised me to be grateful, and maybe it doesn't work all the time, but I'd like to think that I appreciate what I have.

I live in a town with a decent education system (it's not everything I'd like it to be, but it could be so much worse, and I try to remember that as much as I can), and both of my parents are college educated. This doesn't always mesh with the stereotypes people have in their head when they think of Black Americans.  This is definitely due to who raised me/where I raised. Sometimes, though, it feels like there is something wrong with me because I don't fit those stereotypes--including the reality that there is a large portion of the Black population that lives below the poverty line.

Most of my clothes are hand-me-downs from family friends, things bought at a second-hand store, or things that I have splurged and bought for myself.  In the end, I have a lot of clothes--especially shirts--that come from a wide variety of places. Ultimately, though, shopping sprees and mall trips have never had a very big place in my life (if I go to the mall its usually to buy things for other people). I enjoy dressing up to a certain extent, but it’s never been something I give much thought to, so clothing and make-up have never really been things I've expended much money on.

Race (and--to an extent--its intersection with Body Image):

Race is actually something I don't consciously think about very often.  For a wide range of reasons, race has always been a subject that I have a lot of complicated and sensitive feelings about. As I mentioned above, I don't fit into stereotypically "black" communities or traits.  The stereotype I come closest to is "Angry Black Woman".

I am very skinny, so my body type doesn't fit into the curvier image most people have of black women. I've never felt like I could pull off (if I ever felt inclined to) the "Sassy Black Woman", because I just don't look like one. And its really a terrible stereotype, but there's something satisfying about watching Miranda Bailey rip interns a new one in Grey's Anatomy, that I wish I could do it too.

I am exceptionally nerdy, particularly about reading and literature--though I'm also rather fond of sci-fi/fantasy shows as mentioned previously. I'd pay you a hefty sum of money to find a bookworm-ish, skinny, black girl obsessed with Harry Potter (or anything vaguely "nerdy") in a movie, TV show, etc. I’ll throw in an extra few bucks if she’s a feminist and wears her hair naturally.  Obviously, the media isn’t perfect at providing a spectrum of people for the audience to be able to identify with, but it would be significantly easier to find a character that fits the above description as long as the word “black” is removed. It is extremely frustrating when my “blackness” hinges on me fitting a certain set of stereotypes. My nerdiness does not detract from my blackness

Body Image (and Race):

I’ve never been one to be particularly fussed about my appearance. There have been phases of my life where I’ve had lower self-esteem, but for the most part, I’m comfortable in my skin.  That being said, for me, body image is tied intrinsically to race.  Even if it doesn’t typically have a negative effect on me, I am acutely aware that most of the images of “beautiful” I see are tall, white, skinny; typically with long, straight, and (frequently) blonde hair. (The word “beautiful” is in quotations because I’m talking about a beauty standard, or ideal, I don’t mean to imply the group of people I’m talking about aren’t beautiful--not that it should matter.) If there is a depiction of a “beautiful” black woman, then she is tall, and curvy (but not too curvy), with long, straight hair.

That the beauty standard in this country is essentially white has a pronounced effect on body image with Black America, most noticeably when it come to hair.  Obviously, people change their hairstyle for a variety of reasons that may or may not have any relation to race. This doesn’t erase the fact that there seems to be a rather pervasive idea throughout this country about what “good hair” is.  In the simplest terms: “good hair” is straight.  Black women who wear their hair naturally are often criticized about their hair being “too nappy”, or unprofessional, or what have you. Alternatively, people become endlessly fascinated by a hair texture they have little to no exposure to and decide that they suddenly have the right to invade a person’s space and touch it--whether they know the person or not.  And if you wear your hair in dreads? Good luck convincing people you aren’t a dirty hippy of a pot-smoking Rastafarian.

Aside from hair, a lot of self-esteem and body issues among people of color in general have to do with, well, color.  Colorism is a term used to describe the prejudicial treatment of a person based on how dark/light their skin tone is.  From a “beauty” standpoint, the lighter you are, the better. Even within different racial groups this remains true. Taken to the extreme, this can lead some people to want to bleach their skin, or avoid prolonged time spent in the sun.  Some families may push their children to marry someone lighter in order to have lighter children, while others discourage their children from marrying people who are darker, for the same reason.  Colorism is a complex issue, the effects of which can be seen in many different areas within different racial communities, but I’m going to end this here, for now.

Further Information:
  • I wrote a paper a few years ago about colorism, which can be found here.
  • The Color Complex by Kathy Russell, Midge Wilson, and Ronald Hall
  • Good Hair, a documentary by Chris Rock

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